O K NOT

How are you is what he said,
I smiled and politely bowed by head,
He asked how have you been off late?
I said, good, he expected it to be great

I am not happy or fine, I am dying inside
can you hear my wails, my sobs, at day and night?
Can you see my smile breaking down, sunken falling off
can you gauge if i suffocate or choke, if i sneeze or I cough?

Can you see my swollen bruises on me,
my shine turning blue and pale setting free
my spirit my soul evaporating from holes,
abandoning feel and life, losing all goals.

My numb body engulfs all impacts strong,
the lines have been wiped, no right no wrong,
My words are over, my value just nil,
my enemies now, too late for a kill.